Blogs, fogs, and logs I'm chopping away to make a way

I'm testing investing my time , headache to make a break I may be too late but what would that mean, it might mean my great escape to break out of heaven's gate is really all to extreme, I dream of possible leaning, not only on my weight but not understanding, I've been handling this estimated fate I been gambling with for 13 years..
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What I'm getting to is, I have to break on through to the other side, as I once did, and once did provide...
Information on facts, that tax my time like the tax taken from me this last time.. I'm in the hole, looking up , searching for a place to go, a home, a destination... this is what I'm facing....
This will never be  my home, I'm usually wanting to go with someone but I'm seeing the hard facts in having to do this on my own.... I've grown up a bit but still have so much more to go and know.
I'm learning marketing, techie, websites, blogs, seeing through the fog of my once islaocate world... full of dope smoke, and tightened ropes, I used to choke out my voice and then blame it on you...
I've gifted the right to write the words, you hearrd or read if you got me on the scope, my hope is this will contunie to be read and lead into such a tribulation time it helps you cope to see and feel mine, knowing you're not alone in these hard times... All you need to know is you, all your need to trust is you, all you need to do is focus on you, invest tests the things to see if it holds true if it's not you should know what to do...
Research, get the facts, chop away at all the walls you built to keep the world away, and let that light shine in you, then it will lead you to feed you the truth, no love or truth sought leaves you with no options and you don't get sought out, seen or heard.. its your dream your world you created and no once knows what you really see, take it from me, personal and spiritual experiments are meant for your own, just having someone to relate to with you does wonder, I'm still hoping to know.,... what I put in the universe I hope works its way to lifting inspire and no longer hurt, if it does then it's to only seek out the wounds you need help seeking out...

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Who These Words May Mend

Who These Words May Mend

These words aren't for u

It’s for me

But if it soothes u

These words just might be truly free

Their never is a fee just maybe

When I speak to reap the echoes of the lost

It’s a trilogy but at whose cost Is it u or me?

Depending on where we be

It’s what we see

The perspective

The weapon

The victim

The way it stripped em

The soul

The goal

The black hole

The whole piece to the pie

It’s you

It’s me & them

It’s we

It’s us

Which is an eye that sees & trust

We all pass em

Do we not given them then evil eye when high

It’s just me myself & I

When rolling by

Will u say hi or will it be after disasters happen &

Another close one dies

Its life, it happens, it’s a lie, we feed, we need to get bye

Our daily cries of our inner screams, in the dead of silence of empty nights

From broken dreams which all been stop at an end which has no means

Which got smoked in the night with thee group of fiends

They don't know how it works,

It just hurts the curse the dirt

The wasted works of God’s creation

All the precious time we done wasted

So close the ghost can taste this

It’s Just an empty wish

Soon to take place & be the greatest Awaking

You ever seen when u witness face to face

What it takes to break wind &

See you still win over all the heavy sin

Which part u to be bent

This messenger has been sent

To remind u in time & time again

We were born to win

Even if u fail or fall

I’ll call &

We will try again

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Killing myself

I killed myself to be accepted

my deep pain of rejection

kept me in submission

I'm hard to listen

my mouth a weapon

ghetto stepping I won't be letting

any motherfucker, bitch or authority

figure rule my life, cut out my right

to fight , they afraid when I go

riding through the dark nights

then they shake hearing the words I write

straight cut throat hearts

for the mistakes the made

which sent me to the dark

only to return to give me them my curse

my pain, my hurt

in these notes, I've to bleed my soul

my cross iv carried to the land of the unknown

shown more than most would like to know

or would dare to go and since I never had a home

it this road I roam

going wherever the wind blows

I've seen things you see in movies

I've been known to be lost in the background

the only way I was known is when I acted like a class clown

a trouble maker who all around

watched me get taken down in cuffs

I still can't be touched

to tell you the truth

its hell's dues I've paid

to make my own rule

thrones reigned

by going wherever the pain holds

overcome mortal man's plans

to now claiming the reason

why we even came

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oh wicked servant you

I'm paranoid considered an illness

which makes it harder to deal with

the close coincidence when the

wicked come to kill this

struggle to heal all within

leaves me behind

far too real for you to witness

so you hid on the sidelines

praying I make it

praying I won't die

but let me tell you

don't pray for that

pray I make way to leave

truth so the fallen can grip to reach

the father as we concerning

to fall further separated

Weighs sins and forgiveness

to face judgement

handle your business

you live a life of rich locates

and crooked schemes to net

your wildest dreams

you owe nothing

to know one

for you pity the weak and take

authority on the chosen one

so scared to be

exposed you worked your way up

treacherously

you a deadly foe

of what you deny

choose to withhold

Will come to fry and the door

the door to the unknown

behind the psyche of buried trash

stashed secrets evil deals

and things were done to be who you are

A reaper planted wickedness

in ploughs across the lands

handed down orders to cause disorders

in your sons and younger lads

blackmail

hail to the apocalypse

we rise from hell

and you can tell how you were gotten

in this mess

it's all going to come to a grasp

oh its deep so deep

you will beg for peace but only feel the heat

and gnashing of teeth

eternally too bad

had a chance to repent

but instead you got lost in the dirty money

you took and done spent

lent to barely a few

made them feel obligated to you

shame, blame, self-condemnation are your tactics

I expose them to others before it's too late

the bait takes them await they prey to break him

all day they say behind his back how to trade him

Turn on him burns of him

word is in him his word is all powerful

it can not be touched

no matter how many came to work him in

clever nigga

how you figure I bow down

I was raised to raise hell

I've been hell bound

with authority figures

paint the bigger pictures

can't see me or them

cause you're too busy

getting stuck and fucked in your web you webbed to set

on those hungry or weaker

you prey on the addicts

for they are weak and easier to do so


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am I angel or demon I am

Am I

Angel or Demon

I AM

An Angel Or Demon

A rhyme to a reason

or

slim which holds you behind

Did I trick you?

have I been misleading

Lead you to a beat now skipping?

Did I only inflict you with truth

what reality AM I bending

Who am I to you

who am I representing

Did I claim your ways were wrong

That I'm the one who is right and true

Did I claim I'm the light and

The one to rescue you?

Did I show you darkness

And you realised I was like you

Did I come off as one who

Would be stronger for you?

Did I express words

Which inspired a new meaning

of Life for you?

Who am I to you?

Do I encourage you?

To be someone better

Do I touch you through my pain

Written in my letters?

Or

Am I a hypocrite

Feeding you lies

Falling each time

as I’m still telling you

You Deserve better

But then looking at my life

Why so much strife

you question why

Am I just a lie

Am I really a disease

Wrapped in disguise?

Cutting deeper and bleeds

My endeavour left In rhymes

Am I someone who takes

Whatever I need then leaves

You behind

Or

did I leave you alone

So you could finally surrender

Or

am I a rebel society warned about

We shouldn't be together

Have I helped you grow

By my beliefs , if so

Will I be someone you remember

When I leave

Did I show you a doorway to your soul

Into the unknown

In those cold nights of December

So low we go to finds one's soul

We wept together

Did you trust me too much

Falling for love

Believing after I'm leaving

Speaking of my love as not being enough

Do you wish you never met me

Cause I damage all you thought you were

are you more upset cause you let me

Be the one who got too close

Only to love you

Now I'm gone

Only known as a ghost

through my notes

No one knows how we will be affected

Or

where were all headed

But I believe

God is in charge

Guiding humble hearts just as he has directed

From dark to light

From light to dark

Each step of the way

Each person we touch

Each person we love

&

Each person we hate

All play a part to bring you to a gate

Heaven or hell

We all share a tell

My only question is

Are they the same!

Love & Pain

Chris Reinholz

Aka

Saint Michael Ravens

The Gatekeeper

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